Today Prompt(s): How have you changed recently? Who is one person who’s changed you and why?
Change is such a good topic for me right now, because there is a lot of change, good and bad, in my life. That it’s good to talk about. Preamble this post with: Change is good for everyone’s life. I all my life have always been resistant to it. Now I see that no matter what form it comes in it usually in the long way makes your life go a better way than it would have if such change hadn’t happened.
If you have read my previous posts then you know I am currently getting a divorce. Paperwork is almost done YAY! ( I have to do it myself since it’s technically a dissolution and mutual.) You almost may have picked up on the fact that I have someone new in my life 😀 ! Just those two things alone, are enough person for one person, but let’s talk a bit more.
I’m not at all having a problem with my divorce per say… we didn’t love each other, he’s been gone since June and once paperwork and other legalities are out of the way I will be re leaved. The only “issue” I am having is purely mental. I’m so used to the way he treated me, always having someone in the house (apartment, actually), the things he did, our dynamic per say. Like with the holidays coming up it’s going to be so different. My brain is still adjusting to it all a bit. While I’m perfectly fine, and very ecstatically happy actually with Josh (new guy) the holidays have thrown everything off. Since me and Josh are new I’m not sure what to do about holidays. Ya know for the past four years I’ve always had someone with me, celebrating small just us, and with family. Now I’m like WTF do I do? It’s a change that my brain can’t really comprehend right now. I tried talking to Josh about it, but I couldn’t express what I meant, maybe now that it’s written down I can verbalize.
So probably the next biggest change is my new relationship. We have been talking and seeing each other since early September, and finally made it official on 11/11/11 (oh yeah easy date to remember ha ha.) Josh coming into my life has been nothing short of amazing. He sees me in a way that every man should see the women that they are with, physically and mentally. They say you should always change for yourself not for someone else. But we both agree that being with the other, makes each of us want to change, to be better for each other. I never thought anyone could make me feel this way. I see myself in a totally different light. Also for the first time in so many years I am happy with my body and the way I look. Now that’s not to say I am not going to try to start working out again, eating better etc, but I know I’m more than what my warped self-image sees in that mirror.
It’s the little things like this weekend, he came up behind me, and said ” You know what, I decided I’m going to be making you happy for a very long time.”
Then while we were playing the New ZELDA- Skyward Sword game, he randomly would look at me, and say “You’re cute” or “you’re Fucking gorgeous”
Sorry that went on more about personal stuff, but I have no friends, who else am I going to brag too? 🙂 Thanks for reading!
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